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My sweet friend Deryn had injured her shoulder right as her Adorn ornament exchange got underway in November. But that girl is no quitter! I received this gorgeous crystal ornament from her today. It has a little tiny bell on the hand-forged hanger and a sweet sequined ball along with a tassel of ribbons. It's so pretty! Thank you, Deryn! I'm so glad you are feeling better!!
Making more banner hearts today. What are you working on?
Working on Valentines for a banner exchange this morning (using a paintbrush so tiny I think it only has three hairs).
Today, I was reminded to look deep inside the gray for the joy of the every day. Today I was happy. It was that feeling of forgetting all my troubles for a minute and relishing the satisfaction of having a few things all into place that I've been working on and praying about. They're just little things but seeing results made me practically giddy. I took the time to celebrate my joy by singing songs of thanks Loudly in my house. My dogs jumped around as I came down the stairs and danced to my noisy approach.
I hurried off to help at my sons' school. As I got close to the large elementary front door I heard a little bird declaring its presence for everyone to hear. It was singing in it's crystal clear voice quite emphatically. I looked up and there it was, high up on the flagpole, above California's bear flag and Old Glory. The flagpole had a large ball on top and that was where this tiny songstress was perched. There was bird poop at her feet but she was celebrating fully in her best voice. It made me laugh out loud with happiness. I was being serenaded and it was grand.
"Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
There is a new year on my calendar. I feel slightly like I can believe it. Do you know what I mean? Sometimes Christmas comes and goes and people say they never "got in the spirit" of the holiday. The new year is like that for me (and birthdays). The page for December is torn from the calendar and the whole thing is recycled. I go to bed with champagne in my head and wake up feeling like...like what? Like it is just another day? Like the world was reborn overnight? How does it feel?
I don't make resolutions on the first of the year. I make them every day all year long. Sometimes, inside my head, they sound like this, "I won't yell at that woman for cutting me off. I won't yell at that woman. Ok, ok. I yelled at her. She was an idiot. Ugh. Now I feel bad. I will try to be nicer. I will try to be more patient. I will learn to Relax."
Do you get that? When my son is down on himself he can be so brutal. It makes me hurt for him to see him being so hard on himself.
I remind him that we all fall short of our expectations at times.
No one is perfect.
And we shouldn't seek perfection either. It's unrealistic. But we should seek a better direction. We have to strive to be more (fill in the blank). And that is something I try to do every day because some days I move forward and other days I fall so short I can't even remember what square one looked like.
So here I am moving forward and reaching out to say hello to you. I miss my blog friends. I've been drifting for a while. I keep trying to put my feet back on solid ground underneath my pink bubble. I think I am closer. I feel like today is new.
