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it is nine a.m. i'm in my pajamas. i don't like this. i like to be dressed by now. but i am at my desk listening to the soundtrack of the fantastic mr. fox. the music by Alexandre Desplat is particularly happy, lovely, sweet, good and fun. as was the movie. i took the kids yesterday and we loved it. it made me feel full and happy. i am very fond of wes anderson and stop-action film making. it was clever. throw-your head back laugh out loud funny. and, if you are willing to go there, metaphorically meaningful and deep. 

and what else? well, well, well. my head is full of ideas that my shadow self is discarding. she is a lazy old piece of poop right now. she is busily burying everything exciting and feeling confused and unloved. she is tugging old worries out of overstuffed drawers and wearing them knotted against her throat. good God she's a pain in the ass. a dose of good hammering is in order. a fun new design is in my head and on the sketchbook. suppose i push the shadow self aside and get to work. that would be an excellent way to stifle back her poison.

speaking of work, what are you working on? is there something particular that is revving you up?

i tell you what, i've been discouraged lately. more than discouraged i've been numb. there's nothing worse than that. and i know it is derived from lack of work. i'm not working. and because of that i have absolutely zero passion for the task of beginning to work. although there are ideas aplenty they have not come to life because there has been no siren song. i suppose having a puppy has something to do with this although it began before he arrived. but still, i cannot sit to paint or hammer while a little wild thing is eating my ankles or spools of silver or, worse yet, the cats (one of whom is this very moment chewing on my camera). i suppose i may be better off stocking up on ideas for a time when i have the luxury of time. when puppies are tired and kitties are limp languid puddles basking in the power of incoming sunbeams.

mmm...sunbeams. burl ives is singing now on the soundtrack. talk about nostalgic. fluffy red robe. sunbeams through the window. cats sleeping on my work bench. bottles of paint knocked over and used as a bed. shadow self is cackling. time to fire up the torch!

Comments

[lynne]

oh this is a wonderful post, kelly...

i'm feeling inbetween... the old is falling off and the new isn't quite revealed. the muse pops her head out occasionally, but she doesn't stay for long. and i am (quite amazingly) feeling okay with this. (although at this moment i wish she would grace me with a vision of a 'blue moon' painting. maybe later today... ; )

love, love...

[Mary Beth Shaw]

QRSTUV
Yep, I am feelin' it too. I am currently working on projects for my book, just a couple more and I turn them in, yikes! Nerve wracking, it is. And instead of working on one of the new projects, today I decided to completely change one of the previously finished projects. Geez, somebody slap me already.
Happy New Year to you, the hub, the gorgeous kiddos and darling critters.
xoxo

[Julie]

nothing here....I've got nothing..although I spent the weekend in Chris's amazing studio space....I come home to feeling the blahs... I feel bad..not myself..visits and tests are being performed and I hope to have an answer to my winter blahs.

xo

[mary jane dodd]

i absolutely, positively get where you are coming from... i have an incredible (to me anyway) idea for a necklace that i want to get to work on... but the shadow self is pulling at me too... in addition to the cat who lovingly (which kills me) sits in my lap while i try to work, and kids who need me (of course, and with shame i say that i would love a little uninterrupted time!)... i just get what i need in place - kind of - and 'mooom, can i have... ' or 'can you help me?' ... and the answer needs to be 'of course.' i have only within the past 6 months become proficient enough in different media to feel myself bursting at times... but the more things i can do and want to put into a piece, the longer it obviously takes... which i love... and it pulls at me just as hard as the kids or the dog who needs to go out or the cats with the empty food bowl... thank goodness the laundry is mute! wishing you motivation and enthusiasm... i want to get going tomorrow - will be soldering and forging in a below freezing garage... but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do...
glad you liked 'fantastic mr. fox'... my son saw that with a friend... we love roald dahl... we just saw 'avatar' and it was incredibly beautiful... it was a world i didn't want to leave!

[pamq]

Oh, you make me smile!

If I remember correctly, right about this time last year, I had just found your blog and you were writing about needing to "get your ass in the chair".

I have been a faithful follower ever since.

Things are pretty quiet around here too. Since my Kitty died a few weeks ago, I haven't touched a bead. I've mostly been knitting or trying to create some order out of all my chaos.

But the new year is coming and things are bound to pick up.

Right?

[Tamerie Shriver]

I think that sometimes you just have to feel the yucky feelings and let the dark side have its moment before you kick its little butt and take charge again. The ideas will keep and if you can't remember them, write them down for later. I know you'll soon be back on track, creating your wonderful jewelry and painting up a storm!

I just went a read all your posts I missed when I was doing God only knows what that kept me from blog surfing. It sounds like you had a nice progressive dinner and a wonderful Christmas.

I wish you a very Happy New Year!

Love and hugs,
Tamerie

[Gypsy Purple-Chamara]

Wishing you a happy and blessed 2010!!!!. Gypsy Purple--Chamara

[kelly snelling]

thank you, gypsy. and i am sending you wishes for infinite JOY in the new year!!

happy smiles,
kelly