sometimes it is easy to forget that Today is really all we can count on. it gets incredibly heavy to live fearlessly each day. one visit to the oncologist, one swollen lymph node masquerading as a lump, one odd blood level. all these things can shatter my super hero exterior and cause me to take off my magical flying shoes and walk on the earth again. don't get me wrong, i am fine. it's the powers needed to reign in the stray germs of fall and low potassium levels that are wearing me down. it is easy to let my mind rush off to the worst possible outcome of the most minor inkling.
steady, steady...balance.
and, in order to create balance i try to find moments of quiet. best gotten hold of in the morning when the day is still new. when i can parcel out the blessings onto my scale and admire them. when the mere act of breath coming in and pushing out is miraculous enough to swell my heart with quiet joy.
Today is enough. Today is all i have. Today. Today. Today.
i will celebrate this day with a headache or without. i will find joy in Today even though i have to clean my studio. i have a studio to clean Today and that is excellent! Today i will put down my super hero shield and know that i am enough.i will not let fear win Today. i will be strong Today for myself and for so many who are still fighting. i am lifting you all up and sending you so much love.
Hey, you there, strong girl.
I think you're fantastic.
XXXm
Posted by: Martine | October 21, 2009 at 09:23 AM
Hang in there. We just have to keep on keepin' on - one day at a time.
One of my son's best friends drowned in a boating accident back in January 2009, and his senior saying was "Don't let today's best laid plans go to waste, because no one promises tomorrow"
Take care of you. :)
Posted by: Stacey (moffitt) Rickman | October 21, 2009 at 10:40 AM
You are a super hero; you don't need a shield or a cape. You just are! Awesome! Sending hugs, many hugs!
Posted by: Renate | October 21, 2009 at 12:22 PM
as i raise my love to yours let us fly through the heavens together
Posted by: Bethany Geurin | October 21, 2009 at 05:52 PM
I know this battle well. I still fight those demon bugs in my head on occasions (I even named my bug at one point - MOFOCOB is its acronym and believe me it ain't pretty !)but like you, I learned that they are best squished early in the day ans the best way to do that is to definitely give your heart and soul to the idea that in this very moment, it is all O K. Today, now, this moment, it is okay. And that is all we can know for sure and it is also exactly what we need to focus on and celebrate while we have it. Thank God for today. Thank God for this moment. And thank God for my own soul's ability to come back to that when it really needs to.
Glad yours works too, beautiful Kelly !
Posted by: kim mailhot | October 22, 2009 at 04:55 PM